Tuesday, April 10, 2012

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Sometimes, the mantra
"Lalaki ka lang. Kayang-kaya kitang palitan.
slides easily like butter off my tongue. 
It is a lip service that is paid and uttered
 through a mask of indifference and pride.

But at three in the morning,
in the midst of the silence and solitude,
I let go of the farce.

The mask is shattered,
the bits and pieces of reality lay by my feet.

I find that my heart is scalded,
and etched with tears
for what was,
for what could have been.

And I whisper an admission to my aloneness:

"Mahal na mahal ko pa rin siya."

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Para kay kaloy.

20 comments:

  1. para kay kaloy nga ba talaga to? :P

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  2. Ternie my friend (oo friend na kita, bakit ba?), my goodness!!! I love this entry! so poetic at talagang me pinaghuhugutan ka ha.

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    1. naku, hinugot ka iabuturan ng tumbong ko :P

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  3. wow. thank you.

    PS: I echo gillboard though. :)

    PPS: First time anyone ever dedicated a poem for ME. By chance, are you trying to hit on me? lol! (kidding - hayaan m lang akong mag-feeling muna at may maramdaman naman akong iba. hehe)

    PPPS: But really, thank you.

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    1. ps. walang issue!!! lolz

      pps. charoterang kokak ka! lolz

      ppps. nah, thank YOU for your post ;)

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  4. Sometimes sarap isipin na matapang tayo, na naka-move na di na affected.. =)

    When we least expect it.. boom! Siguro totoo din.. we can move on.. from the situation.. but not really from the person nor the feelings lalo na pag nagmahal ka ng totoo..

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    1. nalurkey lang na kapag down ang defenses mo, at saka sya sasabog noh?

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  5. Nakakainis ka! Binabasa mo nanaman diary ko! chos

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  6. And I whisper an admission to my aloneness:

    "Mahal na mahal ko pa rin siya."
    *sabay patak ng luha sa kaliwang mata*

    nora aunor lang ang peg teh ngayon ha!

    ay teh may ganung emosyon ka rin pala!
    charot!

    teh ganyan talaga buhay diba?
    may nang-iiwan at may iniiwanan

    minsan, ikaw ang nang-iiwan
    minsan naman, ikaw ang iniiwanan
    parte ng buhay yan teh!

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    1. naman! you win some, you lose some, but life goes on ;)

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