Kung Wala Ka Lang Magawa

e maaring basahin mo to. Speech na sinulat ko for someone that was delivered in an international TV forum chorvalin somewhere in China teehee

The Haunting (A Re-Post Because Eternal Wanderer Is Gaya-Gaya)

I was lost in thought as I was walking around the neighborhood well past midnight. I have always taken pleasure in these midnight walks. The solitariness of this nocturnal activity has consistently provided a certain measure of comfort; the relaxed pace of the strolling helping to clear away the sticky cobwebs in my thoughts. This particular occasion was turning out to be no different from what I have done in the past. Or so I thought.

Isang Munting Wish (NSFW)

Tinananong  ng aking band of brothers kung ano daw ang wish ko.

Sabi ko, na kasama ko sila nung gabi na yun e wish enough na. Mababaw lang naman ang kaligayahan ko e.

Pero echuzerang froglette si Eternal Wanderer. Meron talagang syang gustong makasama nung gabing yun:

NSFW

Sana ako na lang yung twalya hihihihi

E kung sana sya yung kasama ko buong gabi, e di sana kumpleto kumpleto yung eve ng 27th b-day ko.

Oo, 27th b-day ko. Walang kokontra sa 27th, ok? HAHAHAHAHAHA

The Oddity of Triggered Memories

It was raining cats and dogs when I decided to take a look at my Facebook profile. I was surprised when I saw that someone tagged a few photos of me. It was an album of my last trip in Europe. Eying a particular picture, I noticed that the girls had earrings on their ears. That wasn't unusual since it was snapshot of our sound-check before a performance. What was weird was that I also had an earring still left on. I can't remember if I did use my earrings when singing onstage. There are a lot of stage no-no's in our group, and I'm almost sure that guys wearing earrings are one of them. Nonetheless, I think I was in the position of power enough to get away with those cosmetic infractions while performing. Besides, I would've threatened our manager that I'd go straight back home in the middle of a competition tour if he'd flag me down for wearing my earrings onstage.

Kasabihan ni Eternal Wanderer #1

Ang pride ay parang briefs.

Pag di binaba, magtititigan lang kayo at walang mangyayari!

Something to Think About #2

Kailangan mo ba ako dahil mahal mo ako,

o mahal mo ba ako dahil kailangan mo ako?

Nang Magmuni-muni si Eternal Wanderer Ukol sa Pakikipagrelasyon

1. Pag-like mo yung tao, kada text at tawag sa yo e kinikilig ka. Kung hindi mo sya type, makukulitan ka lang at mabubwisit eventually.

2. Wala sa "sinong ang mas nagmamahal sa relationship?" ang usapan. Nasa "how do we make it work ?" ang labanan.

3. That said, I've always believed that a relationship is a constant work in progress.  Parang sex lang yan. Minsan sya ang nagtratrabaho, minsan ikaw. Pero ang importante e kailangan pareho kayo nagtratrabaho at it. Masarap ang 69, di ba? lolz

Of Icings ang Cakes (A Re-post)

A friend of mine brought over a chocolate cake he bought from a grocery bakeshop. It was reputedly one of the best undiscovered cakes in town. Supposedly very much under-rated.

I opened the box. It did look good. The ganache was all dark and glossy. I couldn’t resist but take a swipe at the icing. Not too sweet. Good. Yummy.

Summer Statement

Ayoko na ng maiinit.

Ayoko na ng masikip.

Ayoko nang mag-commute sa MRT 'pag summer!

NAKAKALUKEY!!!

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Buti lang sana kung yumminess ang mga katabi ko. But no, ang chchaka na nga, amoy pawis pa. Buset!

Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 7: Director's Cut (Huling Yugto)

Borne Out of Tears and Darkness

"O paano yan, mag-eempake na ako ang mga gamit ko," sabi ni Pedro Penduko na may halong buntong hininga.

Mabigat ang damdamin ni Eternal Wanderer. Tahimik lang siyang nakahiga sa kama habang pinapanood si Pedro ilagay ang mga natiklop na damit sa loob ng maleta. 

Paalis na kasi Pedro the next day. Uuwi na ng probinsya para makasama ang kanyang anak.

Banyo (NSFW)

Araw nang Byernes. Nagising ng wala sa wisyo si Eternal Wanderer. Tumingin siya sa orasan at napa-shet in a croaky voice. Alas-syete na kasi. Hindi nya narining ang alarm. Siguradong super-traffic na naman sa EDSA. Baka ma-late sya sa trabaho. Kaya bumangon sya na inaalimpungatan pa't pumunta kaagad sa banyo para maligo.

Pagbukas nya ng pintuan, ang laking gulat nya!

Raw (A Re-post)

You see the edge of a blunt blade as you slowly bring it to your wrist.

It starts with a dull sensation as the blade goes back and forth across the thin skin. 

Then comes the searing pain; the skin finally rips.  You know it is coming, yet a part of you is still caught off-guard by the immediacy of the sensation. 

Office Vignettes 3

I finally made the move from our QC office to the Shaw one. To be honest about it, I really wasn't  looking forward to the change. It meant being stuck in a permanent day shift. I know some people prefer that. I actually don't. I'm a nocturnal creature by habit, and like any good or bad habits, it's hard to get it out of my system. Besides, we're not even talking about the morning and evening traffic rush, nor the fact that it's goodbye to night differential, and that...

Gawd, I'm such a whiner, am I not?

The Portrait of Eternal Wanderer as a Poet

Eternal Wanderer is never one for reading poetry. Perhaps he still has not mastered relishing the words encapsulated in a poem. He has difficulty appreciating the subtle imagery and subtext associated with it. He wishes that one day though, he would eventually learn to savor this written form of art.

Sizzling Summer

Tapos na ang mga malalamig na araw at gabi.

Halos nasa corner na ang summer.

Feel na tuloy bumalandra ni Eternal Wanderer sa may dalampasigan.

Kasama sya.

Aw!

Good Boy or Bad Boy?

 Bad boys spit.

 But good boys swallow.

Do you like good boys or bad boys? And for that matter, are you a bad boy or a good boy?

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*Though taken liberally out of context, salamat kay Raft3r for the idea teehee

Ang Pagbabalik ng Ampalaya Quotes #1

Tugon sa "Kumusta ang iyong puso?"

Anong puso? Saging lang ang may puso.

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Bitter much? :p

Top or Bottom?

Tugon sa tanong: top ka ba o bottom?

Memories and Cowardice: An Apology

"Anong pagkain mo sa bag?" I asked as I approached my friend at the back of the bus. We were enroute from Sweden to Germany; I was hungry and it was way past lunch time with no pit stop in sight.

She smiled as she handed me her large tote bag.

"Eto, may tinapay pa at mga jam from breakfast kanina. May nilagang itlog din dyan. Hanapin mo na lang yung asin sa pakete."

Tambling (NSFW)

Tinanong ni Mugen kung alam ko daw yung blog na yun.

Sabi ko, hindi.

Sabi nya, bisitahin ko daw: http://tinyurl.com/4fmjfl4

Binuksan ko naman.

At ako'y napa...

QUE BARBARIDAD! QUE JALAY!!

Tambling kung tambling kasi er ang labanan!!!

Nakakalurkey lang, dabah???

lolz

p.s. Happy weekend, folks! Hinay-hinay lang sa booking at jerjer :P

For Rudeboy

May this compass guide your way out of your labyrinth of darkness.

That's all I wish for - that you find your true north of peace once more.

Belated happy birthday, Ruddie.

For what it's worth, here's to more happy returns.

Delete Button

It's very atypical of me to go on impulsive fits. I normally take time to think out my decisions, to consciously weigh the pros and cons. Case in point: the former blogger Jayvee complains whenever he accompanies me to shop. He says it takes me twenty minutes to decide between a matte and beaded facial wash, and another ten minutes to chose a night moisturizer or an spf-10 one.

Baklita decisions lang talaga ano?

About Blogging and Reading Blogs

Edited transcript from a YM conversation with Kane:

(Kane): Ternie, tell me the truth
(Kane): whats ur opinion of pinoy gay blogging
eternal_wanderer01: what about it?
(Kane): im curious
(Kane): do you think we have excellent writers?
(Kane): etc etc
eternal_wanderer01: each have their own styles
eternal_wanderer01: some write floridly
eternal_wanderer01: some write concisely
eternal_wanderer01: some write about big ideas
eternal_wanderer01: some write about mundane things
eternal_wanderer01: the whole i point?
eternal_wanderer01: i read to learn
eternal_wanderer01: both with what they have to say
eternal_wanderer01: and how they say it

*End of transcript*

Why do you read blogs? For that matter, why do you write in a blog?

In Search of Happiness

 "When you sense a faint potentiality for happiness after such dark times, you must grab on to the ankles of that happiness and not let go until it drags you face first out of the dirt - it is not selfishness, but obligation."

Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

Ever After

I wish I could say it ended up like a fairytale: the prince and I meet, we fall in love, and then we live happily ever after. And for a brief time, I actually thought we would.  He was charming as a prince, after all.  Tall, dashing, smart, well-established, seemingly sensitive as a poet, and having an inner core of strength that comes with tribulations in life - a perfect package that one only reads in children's bedtime stories. But what attracted me most was the way he'd cry at things that would tug at his heart: a nostalgic kundiman, or even a touching blog post or two.

Around the World in 80 Days, Proverbially Speaking 3 (A Re-post)

a thug at the Jewish Memorial in Berlin, Germany

Around the World in 80 Days, Proverbially Speaking 2 (A Re-post)

Old Town in Brussels, Belgium

I just love romping through these parts of any city! We spent the whole morning exploring the nooks and crannies in the old town section in Brussels. I munched on authentic Belgian waffles (almost bready in taste and texture), and loaded up on Belgian chocolates for pasalubong. Bad decision. It took all my creativity to figure out how to store the chocolates in my luggage without them being squashed.

By the way, I couldn't help but look for Patrash! lolz

A Proclamation

To the unnamed one who is broken, I am not here to piece you back together. I am not a mender, nor did I ever fancy myself to be one. It is you, and only who can do that; no one else. But these are the things I promise I can do for you:

That I will be there for you,

To cradle you in my arms when you need comfort,

And to lift your spirits,

That you may soar in the expansive skies once more,

As you rightfully should.

Ginahugma kita, Ga.

Around the World in 80 Days, Proverbially Speaking 1 (A Re-post)

The best part of what I used to do was that I got to travel around Asia, Europe, and North America singing my ass off. At that time, I'd take it for granted to pack my luggage for months at end. Sure, it was exhausting and grueling to be constantly on the road. But looking back, I was definitely lucky enough to have been be able to go around and see really, really cool stuff.

Isang Tunay na Masayang Pasko

At sa tuwing pagsikat at paglubog ng araw
Nagsisimula't nagwawakas sa salitang "ikaw"
Kaya huwag mo nang itanong kung ano pa sa akin ay kulang
Dahil bawat araw kasama ka ay Paskong walang hanggan.

- Paskong Walang Hanggan  (Ryan Cayabyab/Jose Javier Reyes)

 And a Merry Christmas to one and all! :)

Random Thoughts at 5 A.M.

1. I just finished special project # 2 for the office yesterday.  At my level, only two of us are being pulled out to handle projects for the entire account and not just our line of business.  So far, everything I've been involved with has been very successful. Mabangong-mabango ako sa ExeCom of the account. They know me even if we haven't been formally introduced. Hmmm, can I smell the promotion just around the corner? Teehee

Paglulunok #3

This time, hindi na ako na-surprise. At ang masasabi ko lang ay:

How sweet is it to swallow your love!

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Ika nga ni Pedro, "Lunukin mo. Vitamins yan. Very nutritious!"

And because I'm an obedient person, e may I swallow naman ang ginawa ko.

Aw.

TMI na naman.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Masks (A Re-post)

I am Eternal Wanderer, but yet I am just a mask.

It is not me, but it is still me.

It is not the whole of me, but a part of who I am.

We all put on masks. Different masks to different people. To our parents. To our siblings. To our friends. To our lovers.

Sometimes, we even layer it. One at a time. A careful and calculated construction.

At the end of the day, we take it off.

I take it off.

Only to discover that I am the mask underneath.

Have I become the mask, or has the mask become me?

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A postscript to Kane's entry.

P.S. Sorry di ako maka-reply kaagad sa last post. Sobrang toxic ang projects na binigay sa akin sa opisina. Nakasalalay ang promotion ko sa mga 'to! :P Pahinga muna mode muna ako mula sa pagkukwento tungkol sa teleserye namin ni Pedro Penduko. Abangan na lang ang susunod na kabanata hehehe

Untitiled 4

Bakit ganun?

Sinisigawan na ako ng utak ko, pero iba pa rin ang binubulong ng puso ko.

At ang binubulong ng puso ko

Borne Out of Tears and Darkness

 Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 5

"Ternie...Ternie," I heard a voice softly calling out to me in the darkness of my room.

I was still crouched under the sheets. I slowly opened my eyes, and tried to look at who it was. As my bleary sight adjusted, I saw Pedro seated on the floor with his back against the wall. I was surprised.because he arrived earlier than I expected. He was supposed to meet his cousin to get packages meant for his relatives in the province.

"Uhmmm, anong oras ka dumating?" I replied to him groggily.

He just stared at me for several seconds.

Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 6: Ang Pagpapalit Anyo ni Julie Vega

 Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 5

Ang mga sumunod na linggo ay parang isang blurry dream kay Eternal Wanderer. Panaginip kasi alam nya na kailangan din yang magising sa katotohanan na biláng ang mga araw ng pagsasama nila ni Pedro. Alam din nya na basically straight ang orientation ni Pedro. Maghahanap at maghahanap din ito ng pechay. In fact may, girlfriend nga ito sa probinsya.  Not to mention may pinopormahan pa syang babaeng officemate.

Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 5: Ngisi = Tumbling sa Bangin

 Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 4

May ilang araw na rin ang nakaraan simula nung nagsasama sila sa iisang bubong.  It turned out, ang mang-aalaa ay naging alagain. Nadiscover kasi ni Eternal Wanderer na maasikaso si Pedro Penduko. Tuwing kumakain sila, e inalagyan nya muna ng kaninin at ulam ang plato ni Eternal Wanderer. Kapag gumagala naman sila, kusang binibitbit ni Pedro an mga dala-dala ung isa.  At kahit na 2.5 hrs na nauuna matapos sa trabaho si Pedro at marunong naman ito mag-commute pauwi, e inaantay nya si Eternal Wanderer para sabay silang umuwi sa bahay.

Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 4: Si Pedro Penduko at si Imelda Marcos

Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 3

"''Pre, magre-resign na ako sa trabaho.  Uuwi na ako sa probinsya. Hindi ko na kaya dito sa Maynila. At saka, miss ko na rin anak ko," sabi ni Pedro Penduko kay Eternal Wanderer habang nagyoyosi sila sa labas ng building.

May ilang buwan na rin ang nakalipas simula nung nakilala ni Eternal Wanderer si Pedro Penduko. Ang pinagsimulan ng paghingi ng yosi ay umusbong sa pagiging magkaibigan. Madalas sila magsama pag-break time, nagkwekwentutan nagkwekwentuhan habang naninigarilyo. Minsan, sabay sila mag-lunch. Pero sa totoo lang, deliberately ginagawa ni Eternal Wanderer na mag-coincide ang lunches nila. Kiver sa schedule adherance. Kaya hayun, dumating ang panahon na nagkataon sila lang dalawa ang kumain sa pantry.  Kilig naman si Eternal Wanderer. Date kung date ang pakiramdam nya.

Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 3

Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 2

Na-obssess ng husto ang mga mata ni Anghelita kay Lalaki sa CR. Di nya ito tinantanan. Kapag nakikita nya ito sa pantry, hallway o yosihan, e may I bring out ang abaniko with matching coy na pasulyap-sulyap  and kolehiyala giggle ang drama ni Eternal Wanderer. Yiz, mga ineng, very Maria Clara ang arrive, dabah?

The Reason Why I Breathe Opera

Dame Joan Sutherland
1926-2010

Dramatic Coloratura assoluta
 La Stupenda è morta, viva La Stupenda!

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My belated tribute to the great soprano who died a few weeks ago. This was the very first aria of hers that I listened to, and it lead it eventually lead me to singing opera years later.  

Thank you, Dame Joan, for the wonderful introduction to opera.  You will be sorely missed.

For Anthony (A Repost)

Dear Anton,

Wow, it's been a while hasn't it?  I'd offer a thousand and one excuse for not writing you at all, but hey, better late than never ehehehehe

Ang Gawain ng Dalisay, Busilak, at Mayumi

Hango sa conversation sa YM

Ternie: anong gawa mo?
Spice: eto sa office
Spice: o.t.
Ternie: on a sat?
Ternie: milagro
Spice: am bored na nga e.
Spice: wala man lang maka-sex sa office.
Spice: haist
Spice: am horny

Untitled 3

Dear Ternie,

Running is ok.

I just hope, though, that you're running towards something.

And not away from something.

Love,

Ternie.
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Does the destination matter more than the journey?

Numbers 3

Numbers 2

I always discussed with the guy I was mentoring what he did good and what he could improve on.  I also let him listen in to my calls, and made sure I got feedback from him.  One of the regular coaches and I even gave him a pep talk, of which he responded to very enthusiastically.  That was all I wanted, that he be willing to learn, both in the technical and the communication aspects.

His enthusiasm was infectious. I found another purpose in my work. I swore I'd never give up on the guy I was mentoring.

Sad to say, it was the system that gave up on him.

Numbers 2

Numbers 1

Part of the responsibilities of being a trainer apprentice was to mentor someone who was getting numerous dissatisfaction surveys from the callers.  It took a few days before our schedules coincided, but once they matched up, I grabbed the chance to listen in to his call.

How I wished I didn't.

Numbers 1

"I heard people are being let go," I whispered to Immediate Boss as I approached him. He got his Visine, put a few drops onto his right eye, and was about to reply when Big Boss arrived in our area.

"Ternie, could I have a word with.."

I interrupted him even before he could finish.

Tagging Season

Urgh, and I thought tagging was so last year.  But no, I got tagged in Facebook, where else?  After giving it thought, I decided to share here what I listed down. Anyhoo, here's part of  the mechanics of the tag:

Don't take too long to think about it. Thirty books (providing you've read 30 or more than 30 books) you've read that will always stick with you. List the first 30 you can recall in no more than thirty minutes.

C10H26N4

Tumingin si Eternal Wanderer sa salamin. Napansin nya na medyo dull-looking na ang skin nya. Nasobrahan yata sya sa aircon sa opisina.  At the same time, wala naman syang pasensha maglalalagay ng kung anech-anech sa kanyang fez. Siguro time na ngang mag-visit sa derma at magpa kung anik-anik na treatment.  Pero dahil may pagka-nerdoks si Eternal Wanderer, e nag-research sya ng kung aney ang pwede nyang ipa-chorvah bago pumunta kay Dra. Vicky Belo.

Laterz!

Nauubusan na ng maisusulat at maikukwento si Eternal Wanderer.

Magbe-break muna sya mula sa blogging para makapag-ipon ng mga lalaki istorya.

Sana pagbalik nya, e may jowa na sya.

Echozzzz lang! :P

Eternal Wanderer <<< Bekimon?!

Habang nakasakay ako papauwi sa taxi, e naka tune-in yung radyo sa isang AM station.  Usually deadma lang ako sa ganun, pero hindi ko matiis makinig kasi yung topic ay tungkol sa jejemon. In-explain ng announcer ang ano ang ibig sabihin ng jejemeon, at may short clip pa ng mga taong nagsasaita in jejemon-speak.  "Jusme, that topic was so a few months ago," sabi ko sa sarili ko.

Ukay-Ukay

Hindi ako mahilig sa leftovers. Ayoko ng napaglawayan na.

- quote from a friend

Office Vignettes 2

Office Vignettes 1

The call was mercifully short and sweet.  It was a matter of re-directing towards the e-mail support page of a department in our company.  Before the call, I was experiencing something akin to stage fright; I was a tight bundle of nerves right before the call.  But the moment I opened my mouth, I fell into a light and confident banter with the caller.  The flow of words had an easy feel to my tongue.  Everything dissolved into a blurred background.  There was no coach, no department head, no on-going activity in my surroundings.  It was just me, and the caller, and his issue on hand.

Office Vignettes 1

From an internal office memo dated August 16, 2010:

Please note that if you are filing a leave or swapping your shifts, submit the request three weeks before the schedules are released.

Immediate Boss

Nagmúmura

Tang ina ka.  Wag mo nga guluhin buhay ko.

The Existentialism of Superman

Felicity Rose

After I buried my mom, I had stood there after everybody had left, and I thought...is this it? I mean, is this all that there is? Working in a cubicle six days a week until I'm too old to do it anymore, then I die? Is that it? Is that what we're here for? What's the point?

Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 2

Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 1

Salamat sa mga mata ni Anghelita, na-fluster tuloy ng husto si Eternal Wanderer sa kanyang nakita. Kung di lang sya nagmamadaling bumalik sa kanyang work station, e baka napaluhod sya ng di oras ng walang belo. E paano ba naman, byaheng Dakota-Harrison abot hanggang Lerma ang katabi nya.  At take note, pinkish-pinkish pa itish!

Sawaaaaaap!!! ahihihihihi

Nang Kumerembang si Eternal Wanderer sa Opisina 1

Alam naman ng lahat na si Eternal Wanderer ay dalisay, busilak, and mayumi. Kung maari, e ayaw nyang makaulayaw ang mga katrabaho nya.  Mahirap na.  Alam nyo naman, baka maging sticky ang situation - no pun intetnded.  Nakakalurkey lang kasi kapag it's complicated ang status tapos araw-araw nakikita , dabah?

Pero that doesn't stop Eternal Wanderer na tumingin-tingin around.  Buti na lang, tyempo na meron na syang office building na pinapasukan. Good call pala ang naiisipan nyang mag-corporate life. Dahil dito, nadiskubre nya na may benefits pala ang nagtratrabaho sa isang opisina.

Numero uno na ang nakaka-sight ng mga hottie boys! :P

Weekend Aneurysm

I am condemned to freedom. I am not free because I can make choices, but because I must make them, all the time, even when I think I have no choice to make.

Jean-Paul Sartre
L'être et le néant (Being and Nothingness)

The Bird (A Re-post)

At the break of dawn, I arise from my slumber to face another day in my life.

As I go out to the fields, ready to toil under the soon-blistering heat, I spy a lone maya flitting through the rice stalks. Curiously, it does not flee as I approach.

Questions #1

Bakit ganun?

100

Ngayon ko lang napansin na naka-100 followers na pala ako. Sa totoo lang, nung una akong nag-sulat sa blog, hindi ko naisip na meron palang susubaybay dito.  Di ko nga akalain na merong magtyatyagang magbasa ng mga pinagsususulat ko.  Sabagay, pati rin ako siguro, di ko rin babasahin an mga sinulat ko noon. Puro emo mode kasi e.  Para bang di ako magsususlat kung hindi ako emo.  Pero nakakapagod din pala ang maging gloomy and whine-y all the time hehehehe

Marooned on the Isle of Lesbos

The yosi group and I found ourselves in a whole-in-the-wall inuman place.  It was small and bordered on being dingy; the music was so pumped up I that could barely hear the small talk of my seatmate. I ended up wondering: what in the world am I doing here?  Fact of the matter is, I don't drink.  I also abhor extremely noisy places.  But against my judgment, I still stuck out with the company.  It wouldn't hurt to get to know the people that I'm working with.

As I let my attention wander about, I overheard pretty Boss Lady recounting the state of her love life.  I couldn't quite make out the whole conversation because of the ambient noise.  All I could pick out were "boyfriend" and "girl."  I assumed it was another typical third-party sob story.

Then there was a sudden lull in the music, and I realized I assumed wrong.

Channeling Maricel Soriano

Ayoko ng madumi.

Ayoko ng masikip.

Ayoko ng mabaho.


AYOKO NG MAG-COMMUTE SA MRT!!!

*taena, define siksikan dahil sa ulan grrrrrrr*

To Meet or Not to Meet?

Sa mga matagal nang nagbabasa ng blog ko, alam nyo naman na si Spice ang paborito kong ex.  Ewan ko talaga kung bakit.  Siguro kasi masiyahin syang tao.  Madali lang patawanin.  Kaya nung tumawag sya isang hapon, kinilig ang tumbong ko e sinagot ko naman ito kahit ikliping beauty ang drama ko.

Eternal Wanderer Experiences Failure

"This is Ternie," the Big Boss said as he introduced me to the Department Head. "He got the highest score in the first part of the training."

"Oh, so you're Ternie.  I've heard a lot about you. Do good ha. I'm expecting a lot from you."

One Hundred Fifty Pesos

It was past noon.  I was tired and light-headed from pulling an all-nighter.  If I had my way, I'd rather be in bed, sleeping away. But I had no other time to do it.  I had three days to compile my  documents out of thin air.  Time was running against me as there was a holiday looming.  It was now or never.

Sleepless Dementia a.k.a. When Things Go Wrong, It Really Gets Horrid

1. It started the night before.  There was major confusion regarding the mix-up of the new schedule, and I ended up informing my classmates about the change through text. I should probably add de facto HR to my résumé.

2.  Sleep was elusive because I was already used to the night schedule. All of a sudden, the next phase of training was shifted to the morning with barely 16 hrs. in between.  The result? I had two measley hours of shut-eyes.

3.  I decided to take the cab going to the MRT station. I took the escalator going up, and as I groped for my wallet to buy a stored value card, I realized my wallet wasn't in my back pocket.  It probably fell at the back of the cab since I clearly remember pulling out a twenty peso bill for the fare. Not only did I lose cash, but my cards and driver's license was there as well. Smart Ternie, really smart.

4.  Maybe it was the combination of sleep deprivation and frazzled nerves - I found the topics for discussion barely comprehensible.  It was as if my scrambled brains absolutely refused to absorb all the information being dumped on us. Now, I have to wake up early to restudy my notes. By the way, there were no manuals given out. Bummer.

Bad, bad day.

At the End of the Week

Enjoying the rowdy class - check
Learning new stuff - check
Great teacher - check
Making new friends - check
Hottie batchmate - PASOK SA BANGA NI MELISSA PEREZ-RUBIO!

I am so loving thing corporate thing! teehee

Spoken Like a True Kabit

"Lilisan ako oras na maging hadlang ako sa inyo."

Swallowing # 2

How bitter is your love.

Crap. Overshare na naman ako ahahahaha

Farewell to Never Never Land

"We can only offer," she paused for a moment, "this certain amount. Tell me then, why would you accept it?"

The girl in front of me was pretty and charming.  And she was made of steel, too.  Being of the petite and fragile looks, I thought she would be a pushover.  I was shooting back questions after questions even as she was interviewing me. But she held her ground against my not-so-subtle probing. I was impressed.  I made a mental note not to judge a book by its cover. Looks can really be deceiving.

Advice Needed

A and B are lovers.
A and B are together frequently.
A soon discovers that B has traits he can't tolerate.
B starts to complain that A is bossy and takes B for granted.
A and B begin to have petty fights often.
A has some time off, and realizes he misses his "me" time.
More importantly, A realizes he wants out.
A cannot see the relationship with B work out anymore.
A is awkward with initiating break-ups, and does not know how to go about it.

Please help A.
How should he do it?

Sikretong Malupit ni Eternal Wanderer, Huling Yugto

Sikretong Malupit ni Eternal Wanderer, Ikatlong Yugto

So gorabelz ako sa binabalak ko. Binalibag ko si girl patihaya para magmistula syang isang daing na palaka.  Mula sa pakikipaglaplapan, e dahan-dahan ko binaba ang aking bibig at dila sa kayang leeg.  Sa kanang boobs. Sa kaliwang utong. Nagtagal ako doon. Sa kanyang pagtu-twist e para syang palaka na nakatiwangwang at kinukuryete . Bumaba ako sa pusod.  Inikot-ikot ko ang dila sa loob.  Kulang na lang e kumokak si girl sa sarap.

Sikretong Malupit ni Eternal Wanderer, Ikatlong Yugto

Sikretong Malupit ni Eternal Wanderer, Ikalawang Yugto

Sa totoo lang, worried na worried ako. Was there something wrong with me? Bakit ganun? Turned on na turned on ako sa bawat halinghing ni girl habang nilalapirot ko ang utong nya. At sa bawat pagkayod ng finger ko sa puday nya, e Moana Lisa ang drama ni bilat.  Ewan ko ba, the more na umuungol sya, mas lalo akong nalilibugan.

Swallowing

Tugon sa tanong "Lumulunok ka ba?"

Only when there's love involved.

Or pag nagugulat ako.

Echozzzzzzz

Three Hours and Fifty-Three Minutes

1:45 p.m. Along the road

It was not quite a fine day to go to Intramuros.  There was a sudden summer downpour, and it was payday Friday - a deadly combination.  True enough, the traffic was snarled within the side streets of New Manila.  Even worse was the stretch between the Legarda flyover and Recto. "I knew it," I muttered under my breath, "I should have braved Quezon Ave. and España instead."  But surprisingly, past Recto all the way to Taft, the road was relatively clear.  I arrived at Intramuros just in time to deliver the car to Popsy.

Now, of course, that meant I was now without a car.  That also meant I had to commute back home.

Dog Style

Presenting my baby:

A Note to My Mom and Myself

Mom always says that I'm the best birthday gift she's ever received.

Let me amend that, Mom:

You're the only Mom I could ever want for my birthday.

Many happy returns to us on our birthday, Mom.

I love you.

Memento Mori (A Repost)

I was silently admiring the orchids of your mom while you were off and about rummaging through her things. Some of them were in bloom, painting the simple garden with vivid shades of violet, magenta, and ochre. It's not easy to coax an orchid to bloom, much less have several of them sprout at the same time. I couldn't help but think, "What a beautiful and impressive sight!"

The Magic of an Untroubled Heart

It was half past two in the morning when my phone rang. Since I was already curled up in bed, reading a book, the temptation to ignore it was just a little bit too much. "I wonder who it is," I mused, "It's not everyday that someone calls at this ungodly hour."

The continued ringing broke my train of thoughts.  It was insistent, so grudgingly, I rose and went to the table where my phone was.  I looked at who was calling - and I couldn't help but grin.

Sikretong Malupit ni Eternal Wanderer, Ikalawang Yugto

Sikretong Malupit ni Eternal Wanderer, Unang Yugto

Matapos siguro ng mga 15 minutes e nagsawa na rin kiskisin ni ghelay ang tumbong nya - kaya binulungan ni Eternal Wanderer ito na "Tara, yokabelz tayo outside." Di rin matiis ni Eternal Wanderer na dilaan ng konti ang tenga ni ghel. Mukhang kinilig naman si girl, kaya sumama sya kay Eternal Wanderer palabas ng club.

Pagtataray #2

Tugon sa mga mahilig mangorek ng Ingles na wala sa lugar:

So who fuckken died and made you a grammar nazi?

Sikretong Malupit ni Eternal Wanderer, Unang Yugto

Merong dark na secret si Eternal Wanderer. Matagal na nya ito tinatago sa loob-loob nya.  Inisip nya kasi, kung ibaon nya ito sa limot, e makakalimutan nya ang masalimuot na nakaraan. Pero hindi talaga e.  Para itong karumaldumal na cancer, dahan-dahang kinukutkot ang buong pagkatao nya. Hindi na nya makayaan ilihim pa ito.  Kailangang masabi nya ito sa sangkamunduhan para maibsan ang kanyang pagdadalamhati.

The Joy of Rudeboy

Ladies and gentlemen, may I kindly present, for your viewing pleasure, Rudeboy's joy and happiness:

Something to Think About

"Do you think if you seal it up, that the pain is gonna go away?"

- from the movie Lovely Bones

Tawagin Mo Akong Ligaya: The G4M Adventures 3

Tawagin Mo Akong Ligaya: The G4M Adventures 2

Mga ilang linggo na rin kami nag-uusap ni Pilosopo mula nung nagpalitan kami ng YM.  Ok naman syang kausap: sensible at philosophical.  At mas lalong ok ang kanyang braso tuwing nakikita ko ito sa cam.  Para bagang uumbagin ka any monument sa laki nito.

Tsalap!

One time around midnight, e biglang lumitaw si Pilosopo sa YM.  Nagulat ako kasi usually maaga syang natutulog.  So mi-nack ko sya dali-dali.

Bumoto Ka Ba?

When I woke up past lunch, I already had several texts waiting to be read in my cell phone.  One was from Popsy. It said, "Patay, nag-hang pa ang machine at mas tumagal. You line up thrice. Am still at the 2nd line, waiting to get my number."

As everybody knows, today is election day.  I'm not really one to have a tibak inclination, but neither am I apathetic to the political landscape.  After all, we've been flooded by the blatant campaigning that's been going around the past few months.  From the television to the streets, to the radio and the newpapers, potitical ads have been bombarding us incessantly.  Heck, thanks to a tropa of mine, even the ads of Villar are littered all over cyberspace whenever I surf!

Fairy Tales Suck. Big Time.

"You know what?" I said to him in between puffs of my cigarette as we were resting on the bed.

"What?" he replied drowsily.

It was the third time we had sex.  Tisoy, chunky, and balbon, to boot - the quintessential gallant Prince Charming figure, he was.  But it wasn't just the physical aspect.  We connected really well on a lot of levels.   He was smart and articulate. We could talk about everything and anything under the sun.  I enjoyed his company, and I thought he enjoyed mine.  In fact, we've already had several dates.   What more could I ask for?

Pagtataray # 1

Ang unggoy, ibalot mo man sa ginto, ay unggoy pa rin.

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I'm sorry, but breeding is something you grow up with. No amount of money can buy it. Ever.

Buwan ng Kalibugan

Eternal Wanderer Says 2

Aanhin mo ang kabayo

kung may ngiwi factor ito?

Ay.

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Para sa paborito kong saba. You know who you are lolz

On Being a J3j3mon. Or Not. 2

Then again, grammatical and misspelled blunders could always be corrected and refreshed.  What was really more disturbing was the flow of thoughts and ideas in the essays.  Or more accurately, the lack thereof.  They were disappointing considering these were college-level essays.  At best, the writings were poorly strung together in terms of clarity and cohesiveness.  At worst, they were a jarring read: paragraph after paragraphs that were almost non sequitur in nature.  I couldn't help but shake my head and wonder, "How in the world did these students even pass the English portion of the college entrance test?!"

On Being a J3j3mon. Or Not. 1

A few years ago, Ting Ting Cojuangco decided that it was time to heed the call of the noblest of professions: to be a respected educator at an equally respected university.  So off he went, and dutifully applied at his alma mater.  He got accepted, not surprisingly, on the strength of his skill, charm, and solid backing from a senior faculty member.  On the eve of the first day of classes, he was so nervous with his prep work that he called me to share his jitters. I said, "You have the personality and the chutzpah. But most importantly, you have the fab wardrobe. You'll do just fine."

Postulate #1

No love,

  

no swallow.

Ang Pangtapat Ko Kay Charice Pempengco

Ang Pilipino talaga ay likas na mahilig umawit.  Hindi unusual na may magyayaya na gumimik sa isang KTV, o kaya tumambay sa bahay kasama ang tropa't magngangangawa ng full volume sa Magic Sing.  Kaya naman hindi nakakagulat na maraming mga Pinoy na mang-aawit na tanyag sa iba't ibang lupalop ng mundo.  Pero ito ang sikreto: di mo na kailangang lumabas ng bansa para masaksihan kung gaano ka-talented ang mga Pinoy.

Infinite Limits

Since it seems that the season of geekzoidness is in the air, Eternal Wanderer has decided that's safe to take a peep out of his stuffy nerd-closet after all. But he doesn't want it to be an ordinary, run-of-the-mill coming-out-of-the-nerd-closet rite. He wants it fabulous and bonggang-bongga ever!

Eternal Wanderer is Grateful

Thank goodness, I'm over that nasty bump.  I hate it when episodes like those occur. They're nasty, and absolutely ruin my long, flaxen locks perfectly coiffed into a sweeping french twist.

Humpft.

Raw

You see the edge of a blunt blade as you slowly bring it to your wrist.

It starts with a dull sensation as the blade goes back and forth across the thin skin. 

Then comes the searing pain; the skin finally rips.  You know it is coming, yet a part of you is still caught off-guard by the immediacy of the sensation. 

The Felony of Martha Stewart

 Glenn Close is acting up again.

I woke up from my afternoon siesta to the sounds of my mom playing Spider Solitaire on my desktop. As I groggily reached for my cigs on the desktop, she paused her game, faced me and said, "Let's talk."

I immediately lighted a stick and sat down across her.

Eternal Wanderer Says 1

Kung gusto mo ng kanin, kelangan mong mag-saing.